Jun 23, 2026
Sometimes the thing that almost ended your life becomes the chapter that defines it.
By the time Devin Fish was 18, he had moved 16 times, attended seven different schools, and survived a childhood shaped by poverty, bullying, and his parents' struggles with addiction. He thought joining the Army would be the start of something better. Then in July 2017, a Red Cross message forced him to fly home to make the impossible decision of whether to keep his mother on life support. She passed away just days before his birthday.
What followed was a slow, quiet spiral into self-hatred, isolation, and online blackmail that brought Devin to the edge of taking his own life. This conversation walks through the moment he self-admitted to the hospital, the two pamphlets he found there that changed everything, and the single question that became the foundation of his recovery.
Devin shares how he learned to use one career goal to climb out of suicidal thinking, why writing Answering the Hard Questions in Kuwait forced him to revisit every dark moment on purpose, and how faith eventually rebuilt the parts of him that survival could not.
Through grief, generational trauma, silence, and self-doubt, Devin's story is a reminder that the worst chapter of your life does not have to be the end of your book.
Guest Bio
Devin Fish is a U.S. Army veteran, debut author, and the youngest of two who grew up in Rockford, Illinois. His childhood was marked by instability, bullying, food stamps, and his parents' struggles with drug and alcohol addiction. By 18, he had moved 16 times and attended seven different schools.
In 2017, while stationed at Fort Hood, Devin received a Red Cross message telling him his mother was dying. She passed away on July 9th, just days before his birthday. In the years that followed, unresolved grief, financial collapse, and a series of online blackmail scams pushed Devin to the edge, ultimately leading him to self-admit to the hospital with suicidal ideations.
Devin served nearly ten years in the Army as a Cavalry Scout and Career Counselor, and in 2021 was awarded the 1st Cavalry Division Retention NCO of the Year. While deployed to Kuwait, he wrote his debut book, Answering the Hard Questions, turning his story into a roadmap for anyone still trying to find their way out.
You’ll hear About
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How Devin grew up moving 16 times in 18 years across Rockford, Illinois
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The day he came home from school and found his apartment surrounded by police
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Why he stayed silent about his trauma for most of his life
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Losing his mother and being the one to make the life support decision
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How online blackmail and isolation brought him to the edge of suicide
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The two pamphlets in the hospital that helped him rewire how he thought about depression
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The single question that became the foundation of his recovery
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How writing his book in Kuwait helped him heal what he had buried for years
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Why faith became the cornerstone of who he is today
Chapters
00:00 Welcome and Episode Introduction
01:15 Meet Devin Fish
02:00 Growing Up in Rockford and 16 Moves in 18 Years
04:30 The Day His Father Was Hospitalized
08:00 Why He Suppressed Everything for Years
10:00 Losing His Mother and the Life Support Decision
13:00 The Blackmail Spiral and Suicidal Thinking
17:00 Thirty Seconds of Courage to Ask for Help
18:00 The Two Pamphlets That Changed His Life
20:00 Using a Single Goal to Climb Out of the Darkness
27:00 Reframing Trauma as a Chapter, Not the Whole Book
28:30 Writing Answering the Hard Questions in Kuwait
33:00 Coming Back to Faith
36:00 Devin's Message for Anyone Still Searching
38:00 Final Reflections and Key Takeaways
Chuck’s Challenge
This week, ask yourself one hard question.
Not a comfortable one. Not the one you already know the answer to. The one you have been avoiding because you are afraid of what it might say back.
Maybe it is, "Why am I really staying in this?" Maybe it is, "What am I numbing right now?" Maybe it is the same one Devin asked himself: "Do I want to live, or am I just surviving?"
Because as Devin shared, healing did not start when life got easier. It started the moment he stopped lying to himself in silence and answered honestly.
Whatever your hard question is this week, do not run from it. Let it be the end of a chapter, not the end of the book.
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